Friday, March 16, 2007
16/03
)): i feel so useless
i had the guts to like someone,but didn't dare to admit to her or whatsoever.
Since that feeling came,i stopped talking to her,and i don't know why this feeling keeps going on in me,fuck it!I hate this.I keep saying,I want to do this and want to do that,but until the actual day,i did nothing,i drag and drag,This really pisses me off.."No point talking to her","what for",these were just excuses,all the smiles were just coverings for the weak side of me,remembering that time,when i was primary 6,i cried for a girl?i knew that she liked me,and I liked her too,but why didn't i tell her?fuck that,i had such low self esteem,im so afraid of failure,being rejected or what..Though i often help some people with their problems,i can't even solve mine myself,and i think im that great..Fuck that la.I don't even dare to talk to her,nor look at her,but just to peep at her from some corner...Even when she's near me,i won't even look at her,or talk to her,when she talks to me,i just nod my head or shake my head,i won't even try to continue talking,i just keeps quiet..And when i reach home,i kept asking why i don't talk to her,i keep assuming an answer,trying to look on the brighter side,but it seems,it ain't that way...Im just too afraid of myself failing again..When she talks to me,sometimes,i even ignore her,WTF was i thinking that time,again,i went home asking myself questions...When others talks to her or goes near her all the time,dunno why i just gets pissed off,my mood changes so quickly just because of that..Fuck it la,that's other people's freedom why should i care so much,Im just so fucking selfish..Whenever i see her name somewhere,my vision stops there,for quite sometime,and i dunno why..This is so...
bahh..this post sux ):
Oppurtunity waits for no one,A clever person creates oppurtunities,a normal peron makes use of one,while a stupid one,waits for one..
I don't create oppurtunity,nor i make use of one right in frong of me,or i don't even wait for one..
I really am useless
i had the guts to like someone,but didn't dare to admit to her or whatsoever.
Since that feeling came,i stopped talking to her,and i don't know why this feeling keeps going on in me,fuck it!I hate this.I keep saying,I want to do this and want to do that,but until the actual day,i did nothing,i drag and drag,This really pisses me off.."No point talking to her","what for",these were just excuses,all the smiles were just coverings for the weak side of me,remembering that time,when i was primary 6,i cried for a girl?i knew that she liked me,and I liked her too,but why didn't i tell her?fuck that,i had such low self esteem,im so afraid of failure,being rejected or what..Though i often help some people with their problems,i can't even solve mine myself,and i think im that great..Fuck that la.I don't even dare to talk to her,nor look at her,but just to peep at her from some corner...Even when she's near me,i won't even look at her,or talk to her,when she talks to me,i just nod my head or shake my head,i won't even try to continue talking,i just keeps quiet..And when i reach home,i kept asking why i don't talk to her,i keep assuming an answer,trying to look on the brighter side,but it seems,it ain't that way...Im just too afraid of myself failing again..When she talks to me,sometimes,i even ignore her,WTF was i thinking that time,again,i went home asking myself questions...When others talks to her or goes near her all the time,dunno why i just gets pissed off,my mood changes so quickly just because of that..Fuck it la,that's other people's freedom why should i care so much,Im just so fucking selfish..Whenever i see her name somewhere,my vision stops there,for quite sometime,and i dunno why..This is so...
bahh..this post sux ):
Oppurtunity waits for no one,A clever person creates oppurtunities,a normal peron makes use of one,while a stupid one,waits for one..
I don't create oppurtunity,nor i make use of one right in frong of me,or i don't even wait for one..
I really am useless
i know that i have loved you ... at 6:45 PM
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