Monday, August 13, 2007
13/08
okay,this is going to be an emo post = so,yea,if you don't like these kind of things,don't go on reading =
received my o lvl chinese results today,ok,for myself its a bad grade,but you know,after thinking after a good shower,i thought that i should not ponder that much about the grade but just move on work harder =),so yea,B3 is a good grade x)) and ok,now lin xunqi owes me a meal but i owe her a big pressie for her b'day and a meal ):
emo parts :/
okay,i know im a guy who gets jealous easily, a man with lots of intentions and certainly a selfish man,furthermore,im a loser...i see others often,observe them and frequently make silly remarks on them and often tells myself that i must not be like them,but in the end,i,myself repeat those things people do,if i don't want all these feelings,why not i work harder for it,blame people?ya,i blame people everytime,i never once blamed myself,im just a nothing ):
I only want to take the path closest to success and i always want to get that with only a little bit effort,then,nothing went well,and i blame people,luck or any other things..blah lets stop this now,we'll move on to the other personal side of me =))
I see,observe and think,and this inevitably leads me to conclusions which i don't like,and makes me feel sad or whatsoever,i just put a strong looking mask and just a ugly smile...
maybe in the first place i should not even have think of even having feelings for u
ahhh,this morning,i woke up with a feeling that nobody is as important as myself,no thinking of any extra things nor people =) felt so amazing,never this amazing before,i yearn for this feeling =) alright,this will be a painful period,but i swear,i will make her disappear from my head
received my o lvl chinese results today,ok,for myself its a bad grade,but you know,after thinking after a good shower,i thought that i should not ponder that much about the grade but just move on work harder =),so yea,B3 is a good grade x)) and ok,now lin xunqi owes me a meal but i owe her a big pressie for her b'day and a meal ):
emo parts :/
okay,i know im a guy who gets jealous easily, a man with lots of intentions and certainly a selfish man,furthermore,im a loser...i see others often,observe them and frequently make silly remarks on them and often tells myself that i must not be like them,but in the end,i,myself repeat those things people do,if i don't want all these feelings,why not i work harder for it,blame people?ya,i blame people everytime,i never once blamed myself,im just a nothing ):
I only want to take the path closest to success and i always want to get that with only a little bit effort,then,nothing went well,and i blame people,luck or any other things..blah lets stop this now,we'll move on to the other personal side of me =))
I see,observe and think,and this inevitably leads me to conclusions which i don't like,and makes me feel sad or whatsoever,i just put a strong looking mask and just a ugly smile...
maybe in the first place i should not even have think of even having feelings for u
ahhh,this morning,i woke up with a feeling that nobody is as important as myself,no thinking of any extra things nor people =) felt so amazing,never this amazing before,i yearn for this feeling =) alright,this will be a painful period,but i swear,i will make her disappear from my head
i know that i have loved you ... at 8:05 PM
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