Thursday, September 27, 2007
28/09
ahhh,today was no different from last night,totally no mood,wanted to go out to study,yet no one wanna help me ): ... actually there's some people whom i didn't ask,so not everyone don't wanna help me la, :-\
there's this uncomfortable feeling in me,really,really uncomfortable feeling,it justs feels like my heart is so incomplete,i can't even smile that night,and there was this feeling that i don't even want to play or do anything,i just feel like crying out loud ): , ya,i tried,but no use,can't even shed a tear..bllaaaahhhh
however,this morning,i tried to smile as widely as possible,still,i felt really empty,those smiles were put on...everything seems so stale... )':
why is it like this,why can't i just put more effort into pushing myself ): ...why can't i even open my mouth to say those things i wanted to...why am i only looking secretly from behind...this is really getting more and more unbearable..
and thank you for all the things you've helped me with,whenever i needed help,i'd sought help from you,and you never fail to help me..ya,thanks alot..
uh-huh,english mock exam today,and i came across this question..Write about an occasion when you lied for someone you love from an embarrassing situation..
what is love?like?special feelings for someone?what is love? is it edible?i turned my head and asked ppl around me
me:"xuanwen,what is love?
xuanwen:"like la"
me:"like=love?"
xuanwen:"nono,love is 10x of like"
me:"..."
hah and then,
me:"raymond,what is love"
xuanwen:"all those things xuanwen said"
me:"...."
and one more joker
me:"jianzhong,what is love"
jianzhong:"ai lor"
me:"..."
i was stuck there for like so long,i was stuck at the word "love" what is love..is it edible?
bllahhh,in the end,came up with a shitty plot and tried to finish my compo on time,mmhmm,
everything was boring after that...
mmmhhh,school was so empty,the sec1-3s were at home studying when we were still in class doing nothing,bllaahh,then went out with the other two in-school gamers,the pro,jasper,the noob,ren hui
hah,we crapped there for like dunno how long and they left for home,while i,trying to find another partner to study was roaming there aimlessly,in the end,tmd,ian was using the comp,and that diyao,don't wanna come out to study with me,bleh..
ok,and hence,i proceeded home,yes,i walked (: its really weird when i don't sweat out much,i feel really weird when not sweating,and ya,i got emo on the walk home,it felt really really great,and i dunno why,the wind blows to my face and i think...(: its so soothing la,haha,
well,alot of weird things happened recently,my heart feels empty,sudden sharp pains at my ribcage,and blah blah blah,why can't more happy things happen? >.<
bllaaahh,life is complicated,): and
chung ming gui,u don't show others the ____ hor,and go tml la, (:
koh si yuan,shush >.< , u're not only hinting to other people,and you're indirectly telling ppl ):
ian,xing yi dai qing chang wang zi,yo,ni de hao yi wo xing ling le,but too late!
the walk home,is really great...
there's this uncomfortable feeling in me,really,really uncomfortable feeling,it justs feels like my heart is so incomplete,i can't even smile that night,and there was this feeling that i don't even want to play or do anything,i just feel like crying out loud ): , ya,i tried,but no use,can't even shed a tear..bllaaaahhhh
however,this morning,i tried to smile as widely as possible,still,i felt really empty,those smiles were put on...everything seems so stale... )':
why is it like this,why can't i just put more effort into pushing myself ): ...why can't i even open my mouth to say those things i wanted to...why am i only looking secretly from behind...this is really getting more and more unbearable..
and thank you for all the things you've helped me with,whenever i needed help,i'd sought help from you,and you never fail to help me..ya,thanks alot..
uh-huh,english mock exam today,and i came across this question..Write about an occasion when you lied for someone you love from an embarrassing situation..
what is love?like?special feelings for someone?what is love? is it edible?i turned my head and asked ppl around me
me:"xuanwen,what is love?
xuanwen:"like la"
me:"like=love?"
xuanwen:"nono,love is 10x of like"
me:"..."
hah and then,
me:"raymond,what is love"
xuanwen:"all those things xuanwen said"
me:"...."
and one more joker
me:"jianzhong,what is love"
jianzhong:"ai lor"
me:"..."
i was stuck there for like so long,i was stuck at the word "love" what is love..is it edible?
bllahhh,in the end,came up with a shitty plot and tried to finish my compo on time,mmhmm,
everything was boring after that...
mmmhhh,school was so empty,the sec1-3s were at home studying when we were still in class doing nothing,bllaahh,then went out with the other two in-school gamers,the pro,jasper,the noob,ren hui
hah,we crapped there for like dunno how long and they left for home,while i,trying to find another partner to study was roaming there aimlessly,in the end,tmd,ian was using the comp,and that diyao,don't wanna come out to study with me,bleh..
ok,and hence,i proceeded home,yes,i walked (: its really weird when i don't sweat out much,i feel really weird when not sweating,and ya,i got emo on the walk home,it felt really really great,and i dunno why,the wind blows to my face and i think...(: its so soothing la,haha,
well,alot of weird things happened recently,my heart feels empty,sudden sharp pains at my ribcage,and blah blah blah,why can't more happy things happen? >.<
bllaaahh,life is complicated,): and
chung ming gui,u don't show others the ____ hor,and go tml la, (:
koh si yuan,shush >.< , u're not only hinting to other people,and you're indirectly telling ppl ):
ian,xing yi dai qing chang wang zi,yo,ni de hao yi wo xing ling le,but too late!
the walk home,is really great...
i know that i have loved you ... at 7:41 PM
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