Wednesday, October 31, 2007
31/10
!!!!omg,last night was really horrendous,only a few people knows it and even one of them laughed at me!';...;' u know who u are eh,roar,eat u up ar panda,or nevermind,don't eat you up,give you a few more obaka at your eye,make you cannot take colour shots forever!muahahah,ok la (: i stop cursing you
mm..ok...ah hah,i read jing hang's post,wa lau eh,so emo,like shen li shi bie like that,ahahahha
bleh,everything is like that one eh,always opposite of what i hope it will happen,not once eh,not even twice,thrice...blah,i'll just try not to think so much about it,life's never easy to walk through,tsk...
overall for o lvls,easier than i thought,but i know,with all my luck,i'll just get an average score,if no luck,then imma do quite badly ): blahh..anyways i just want to go to a poly :// tsk...
fuuuaaaaa,sleepless night lor last night,closed my eye,but turn here turn there until 2+ then i can rest,and woke up at 11,OMG LA,so late,)):
my post feels so empty,tsk,
k,i go do some other stuffs now,chao
P.S. im not gay
mm..ok...ah hah,i read jing hang's post,wa lau eh,so emo,like shen li shi bie like that,ahahahha
bleh,everything is like that one eh,always opposite of what i hope it will happen,not once eh,not even twice,thrice...blah,i'll just try not to think so much about it,life's never easy to walk through,tsk...
overall for o lvls,easier than i thought,but i know,with all my luck,i'll just get an average score,if no luck,then imma do quite badly ): blahh..anyways i just want to go to a poly :// tsk...
fuuuaaaaa,sleepless night lor last night,closed my eye,but turn here turn there until 2+ then i can rest,and woke up at 11,OMG LA,so late,)):
my post feels so empty,tsk,
k,i go do some other stuffs now,chao
P.S. im not gay
i know that i have loved you ... at 10:01 PM
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fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Monday, October 22, 2007
22/10
!!!!!O level a maths paper 4018/01 today,heh (:
ok la,it was fairly ez but i had a few mistakes here and there,bleh,so,ya,i just aim for a b3 eh,unless tomorrow is an interesting paper and miraculously i can solve them somehow,mmhmm,the atmosphere was really tense eh,aiyo,study so many years just for the next few days,bleeehh..
few days ago was like,so fast over,went out to study and stayed at home to study,then time just pass like this ): mmhmm,went out to study on saturday with diyao and alex,that crazy diyao and the always hardworking yuan lin,mug from 10pm to 8am at khatib mac,siao one eh them,no need to sleep,just mug,that is not good eh,your liver is going to suffer (:
mmhmm,alex was more like doing nothing there eh,and i was doing a math (: then that diyao,went all emo when i said he cannot come my house (: mmm,ya,i went home and did some more a math paper,well,they were fairly ez..
ya,and this morning,i went over to yu kai's house to study some a math and help him with some questions,regretted ):,with my help the o lvl paper,he can pass,if i never help him,i think he fail LOL blah,no matter what,i'll help him one la,haha,my pri school to sec school friend,so,we studieed for like 1 hr and i started to play his comp ((: yu kai took out his shirts and shorts in front of me ._. blah
im going rara over an old song,really describes my feeling eh,and the mv is so,haha,awesome,like my life ._. jian jian dan dan ((:
well,off for more a maths practices chao (:
ok la,it was fairly ez but i had a few mistakes here and there,bleh,so,ya,i just aim for a b3 eh,unless tomorrow is an interesting paper and miraculously i can solve them somehow,mmhmm,the atmosphere was really tense eh,aiyo,study so many years just for the next few days,bleeehh..
few days ago was like,so fast over,went out to study and stayed at home to study,then time just pass like this ): mmhmm,went out to study on saturday with diyao and alex,that crazy diyao and the always hardworking yuan lin,mug from 10pm to 8am at khatib mac,siao one eh them,no need to sleep,just mug,that is not good eh,your liver is going to suffer (:
mmhmm,alex was more like doing nothing there eh,and i was doing a math (: then that diyao,went all emo when i said he cannot come my house (: mmm,ya,i went home and did some more a math paper,well,they were fairly ez..
ya,and this morning,i went over to yu kai's house to study some a math and help him with some questions,regretted ):,with my help the o lvl paper,he can pass,if i never help him,i think he fail LOL blah,no matter what,i'll help him one la,haha,my pri school to sec school friend,so,we studieed for like 1 hr and i started to play his comp ((: yu kai took out his shirts and shorts in front of me ._. blah
im going rara over an old song,really describes my feeling eh,and the mv is so,haha,awesome,like my life ._. jian jian dan dan ((:
well,off for more a maths practices chao (:
i know that i have loved you ... at 7:40 PM
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fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Thursday, October 18, 2007
18/10
tsk,graduation ceremony,its like,so weird la,not really special,but there was this thought in my mind which bugged me for the entire day,eventually,before i went to have extra activities,i solved it,but it was not for long eh,during the basketball game,something's gotten into me,i can't get my head into the game,passes,dribbles all screwed,i thought that i can't guage the distance as my eyesight's getting bad,it was for two games,that i can't even pass properly,my passes were either too slow,or too short,i can't even see open spaces eh,my brain is like lagged,i thought that this was because too long never play full court,and hence,i was a bit held back...but i realised,after the match,it was something else eh,i saw something really surprising,then again,emo liao lor ): i decided to walk home,even though my back hurt and i suppose my knees are falling as they can't support my weight for fastbreaks,but still,if u don't push yourself over your own limits,you won't exceed yourself eh?ok la,then was supposed to go out to study,and i reached late,because tired+im not those who only appears punctual because another party is a girl la,jinghang,if u ever read this u will know ((: or any othe person of his clique (: and i left early because of some other reasons (:
si ming gui,u put my aeroplane,u good rawr
im tired,really tired of all these shit,after liking someone,communicating with that person becomes a problem,but i didn't expect that problem to be so serious,i can't even look into the eyes,not don't dare,i think is that i don't want,pssht,and then,when the person speaks,its as if i don't know what to say,what to reply,really vexing eh,k la,i stop this here...but seriously eh,i really don't like those kind of people who changes totally to a totally nice person when there is the prescence of a girl,those kind of people really disgusts me.
mmm ok,and
i love jinghang XD "MOTHER!!!!"
haha, ;P
and thank you pandas, (: eventually i found a way to do what u adviced me to do (: thanks ssssssss
si ming gui,u put my aeroplane,u good rawr
im tired,really tired of all these shit,after liking someone,communicating with that person becomes a problem,but i didn't expect that problem to be so serious,i can't even look into the eyes,not don't dare,i think is that i don't want,pssht,and then,when the person speaks,its as if i don't know what to say,what to reply,really vexing eh,k la,i stop this here...but seriously eh,i really don't like those kind of people who changes totally to a totally nice person when there is the prescence of a girl,those kind of people really disgusts me.
mmm ok,and
i love jinghang XD "MOTHER!!!!"
haha, ;P
and thank you pandas, (: eventually i found a way to do what u adviced me to do (: thanks ssssssss
i know that i have loved you ... at 11:47 AM
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fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Tuesday, October 16, 2007
15/10
tsk,7 more days eh,mmhmm,big study groups never work out,i was really really bored at home,really nothing to do because aiyo,alot of things happened eh,i wanted to study,but i thought that,i could get someone out to study together,but in the end,that jasper,didn't wanna 1 on 1 study,hence,i got no choice but to go to the big groups eh..well,but,i flew someone's kite,sorry (: and ya,i watched diehard 4.0 and bourne ultimatum,wowderful shows ok,live free or die hard (: or change ur identity (:
mmhmm,i rushed down for jasper,and in the end,i saw him strolling to the mrt station at sembawang,rararararar,ok,and then as we reached there,i saw,4 guys on a table,no seats ): sob
then i stood and wait because i don't wanna sit on the floor!so i stood and wait until one person left,rarararar,tsk,in the end that ang hui fong,took my psp out,and spoilt all our mood on studying,and soon farhan started taking out his psp and played and everyone got a touch on both our psp...see,big study groups won't work for long ):
tsk,this is bothering me eh,i keep thinking and thinking even when im sick,this is very weird eh,i thought that,what will happen to us after o lvls?will we stay in contact with each other?will i pluck up the courage to do something daring?tsk,all these things bothering me,blah,i hate farewells..and pandas say that i am monotonous,then cheer me up la (:
k,tml got extra lesson so chao~
mmhmm,i rushed down for jasper,and in the end,i saw him strolling to the mrt station at sembawang,rararararar,ok,and then as we reached there,i saw,4 guys on a table,no seats ): sob
then i stood and wait because i don't wanna sit on the floor!so i stood and wait until one person left,rarararar,tsk,in the end that ang hui fong,took my psp out,and spoilt all our mood on studying,and soon farhan started taking out his psp and played and everyone got a touch on both our psp...see,big study groups won't work for long ):
tsk,this is bothering me eh,i keep thinking and thinking even when im sick,this is very weird eh,i thought that,what will happen to us after o lvls?will we stay in contact with each other?will i pluck up the courage to do something daring?tsk,all these things bothering me,blah,i hate farewells..and pandas say that i am monotonous,then cheer me up la (:
k,tml got extra lesson so chao~
i know that i have loved you ... at 12:08 AM
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fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Sunday, October 14, 2007
14/10
8 more days eh,(: and im still not really done with my revision,its almost done though (:
well,someone asked me to blog,so,hmm,hence im here (: , recently these few days,not i don't wanna blog eh,its because i am sick ): then become tired,and it eventually leads to no mood to blog,nothing much happened these few days,except a few recent papers,chem paper 3 and phy paper 3,i won't score well for them (: the most i think is a b4 or a c5,hence im going to work hard for the other papers :/,but i know,kinda impossible la,based on my lousy iq..
tsk,i can't really remembered what happened these past few days,my illness,makes me forget them all but still,there's still one image in my mind,very clearly (: but aiya,that time,i didn't bring my phone or else,that would be nice eh,and hmm,hey,wait,my phone bill's exploding,so pls,don't call my hp anymore >.<>
mmhmm,and heh,i met up with this old schoolmate of mine,and we had a long talk,(: he's a clever guy eh,14 pts for prelim in andersson sec,that's like *#@#@(# good,for me la,cause when i had a glance on their paper,i was like ()*(#)@*)@,
bah,blogging crap..
well,being sick isn't really bad,u are so tired that you can't even think well,so all my other thoughts were not completed,so i can't emo anymore,and wow,not long ago,you came online,and now,im emo ):
how?
k i need my rest now chao bb
well,someone asked me to blog,so,hmm,hence im here (: , recently these few days,not i don't wanna blog eh,its because i am sick ): then become tired,and it eventually leads to no mood to blog,nothing much happened these few days,except a few recent papers,chem paper 3 and phy paper 3,i won't score well for them (: the most i think is a b4 or a c5,hence im going to work hard for the other papers :/,but i know,kinda impossible la,based on my lousy iq..
tsk,i can't really remembered what happened these past few days,my illness,makes me forget them all but still,there's still one image in my mind,very clearly (: but aiya,that time,i didn't bring my phone or else,that would be nice eh,and hmm,hey,wait,my phone bill's exploding,so pls,don't call my hp anymore >.<>
mmhmm,and heh,i met up with this old schoolmate of mine,and we had a long talk,(: he's a clever guy eh,14 pts for prelim in andersson sec,that's like *#@#@(# good,for me la,cause when i had a glance on their paper,i was like ()*(#)@*)@,
bah,blogging crap..
well,being sick isn't really bad,u are so tired that you can't even think well,so all my other thoughts were not completed,so i can't emo anymore,and wow,not long ago,you came online,and now,im emo ):
how?
k i need my rest now chao bb
i know that i have loved you ... at 11:10 PM
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fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Sunday, October 07, 2007
07/10
this is really vexing,everything's hidden within me,i can't even voice out
i am no longer the allen everyone knows now
i am no longer the allen everyone knows now
i know that i have loved you ... at 7:59 PM
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fate crumbled all around 0 identities
07/10
16 more days left huh..
mmhmmm,omg,the feeling of graduating isn't really good eh,recently,it makes some people around me,really sad,everyone thinks about the past and then get really sad,all these things we've done,all these things we've said and all we had gone through...mmhmm,yes,i do feel kinda bu she de la,but no choice eh,its a part of life,i wanna go back to school everyday to sit there,and daze off thinking about some other things,and do zhang shou's revisions,its really touching when people says,"Allen,you can do well,you just need to put in more effot."eh?,i didn't know eh.."allen how come you know so many things,but you cannot score well"eh,its by luck that the question is something i know,so i can think about the answer quickly eh...mmhmm,and i like to sit there to listen to hui ling's observations,she never fail to observe how peculiar the teachers' outfits eh,mmhhhh,and many many other things..
last night,i had this conversation with yu kai,and ohhhh,i feel so sad after that la,not because he said something that upset me,but it's the questions he asked,those things he'd said,"allen,my mom compares u with me,she often says that u see allen,no tuition oso do better than you"hey,that was ages ago when i did well without tuition,but he still said something else,"You were once good"O M G,it's so weird that,that phrase comes out from him la,and then he rattles on and on about his life and my life..
i may look cheerful on the outside,but i feel really empty inside,those laughters are just to cover the emptiness in me,i seem to look like i have everything,materialistically,but,i've got nothing,the only thing that i face at home when i reach home from school is my empy house,the walls,the tv,there's no one for me to talk to,when some things bad happens in school,there isn't anyone for me to turn to,only until night time,my parents reach home from work then,i could share it with them,the time between was really really,unbearable,i felt like breaking down,but,there's something that keep preventing me to tear out..
i hate loneliness,pls take away the loneliness away from me )':
mmhmmm,omg,the feeling of graduating isn't really good eh,recently,it makes some people around me,really sad,everyone thinks about the past and then get really sad,all these things we've done,all these things we've said and all we had gone through...mmhmm,yes,i do feel kinda bu she de la,but no choice eh,its a part of life,i wanna go back to school everyday to sit there,and daze off thinking about some other things,and do zhang shou's revisions,its really touching when people says,"Allen,you can do well,you just need to put in more effot."eh?,i didn't know eh.."allen how come you know so many things,but you cannot score well"eh,its by luck that the question is something i know,so i can think about the answer quickly eh...mmhmm,and i like to sit there to listen to hui ling's observations,she never fail to observe how peculiar the teachers' outfits eh,mmhhhh,and many many other things..
last night,i had this conversation with yu kai,and ohhhh,i feel so sad after that la,not because he said something that upset me,but it's the questions he asked,those things he'd said,"allen,my mom compares u with me,she often says that u see allen,no tuition oso do better than you"hey,that was ages ago when i did well without tuition,but he still said something else,"You were once good"O M G,it's so weird that,that phrase comes out from him la,and then he rattles on and on about his life and my life..
i may look cheerful on the outside,but i feel really empty inside,those laughters are just to cover the emptiness in me,i seem to look like i have everything,materialistically,but,i've got nothing,the only thing that i face at home when i reach home from school is my empy house,the walls,the tv,there's no one for me to talk to,when some things bad happens in school,there isn't anyone for me to turn to,only until night time,my parents reach home from work then,i could share it with them,the time between was really really,unbearable,i felt like breaking down,but,there's something that keep preventing me to tear out..
i hate loneliness,pls take away the loneliness away from me )':
i know that i have loved you ... at 11:16 AM
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fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Monday, October 01, 2007
01/10
01/10,i would be damn enthu on this day 4 years and more ago,haha,but i bet some of my beloved schoolmates and some friend i have outside must be having fun today too..
hahaha,haiyo,today,don't know how to say,haiya,wished i was still a kid back then,nothing to worry about,now,need to study stress exam ._. hais,so many things to think about la,then got this weird weird feeling,then want this want that,alot of things to think about la,bllaaahhh
mmhmm,today,not bad la,at least not as sad as before (: and the weird weird feeling about someone is like gone (: yippee,and then even though i heard that guy,whom i don't like laugh/talk about me,i was not angry la,then so on and so on lor (:
heh,we did scgs paper 2,the paper isn't ez at all leh,but still i aim for a 2 or 1 xD which is like impossible :/ mmhmm,and ya,ravi is very very irritating..
today,did the first few qns,very vexing,because the answers all not nice one,very very funny numbers,fraction,then that ravi keep sniffing,very very noisy,i was like cursing and swearing softly to myself and when i came to a question,QN 6,totally don't know how to do,but kept recalling,but ah,he kept sniffing,and i finally cannot take it,i put down my pens and smacked my face,which became very loud la,then after that he kept laughing at me because of that,and he began to push me around,but...i don't mind haha,he makes my day actually,haha,
and i love taking raymond's metal rule and whack him,who ask him,everytime take the scissors swing swing swing,and is i dunno then he swing,if he lau qiu,hit me how ): and he like to take his scissors and does an action like going to put that scissors to my back, ';...;' mmmmm,and
jason and yongsiang are trying to threaten me,rawr,qu chi da bian la you two..
and i shall post a random pic (:
hehe,and HAPPY CHILDREN'S DAY to lin xunqi,haha
fuaaa,and the story ends with they live happily ever after
0168 <3>
hahaha,haiyo,today,don't know how to say,haiya,wished i was still a kid back then,nothing to worry about,now,need to study stress exam ._. hais,so many things to think about la,then got this weird weird feeling,then want this want that,alot of things to think about la,bllaaahhh
mmhmm,today,not bad la,at least not as sad as before (: and the weird weird feeling about someone is like gone (: yippee,and then even though i heard that guy,whom i don't like laugh/talk about me,i was not angry la,then so on and so on lor (:
heh,we did scgs paper 2,the paper isn't ez at all leh,but still i aim for a 2 or 1 xD which is like impossible :/ mmhmm,and ya,ravi is very very irritating..
today,did the first few qns,very vexing,because the answers all not nice one,very very funny numbers,fraction,then that ravi keep sniffing,very very noisy,i was like cursing and swearing softly to myself and when i came to a question,QN 6,totally don't know how to do,but kept recalling,but ah,he kept sniffing,and i finally cannot take it,i put down my pens and smacked my face,which became very loud la,then after that he kept laughing at me because of that,and he began to push me around,but...i don't mind haha,he makes my day actually,haha,
and i love taking raymond's metal rule and whack him,who ask him,everytime take the scissors swing swing swing,and is i dunno then he swing,if he lau qiu,hit me how ): and he like to take his scissors and does an action like going to put that scissors to my back, ';...;' mmmmm,and
jason and yongsiang are trying to threaten me,rawr,qu chi da bian la you two..
and i shall post a random pic (:
hehe,and HAPPY CHILDREN'S DAY to lin xunqi,haha
fuaaa,and the story ends with they live happily ever after
0168 <3>
i know that i have loved you ... at 4:48 PM
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fate crumbled all around 0 identities