Sunday, October 07, 2007
07/10
16 more days left huh..
mmhmmm,omg,the feeling of graduating isn't really good eh,recently,it makes some people around me,really sad,everyone thinks about the past and then get really sad,all these things we've done,all these things we've said and all we had gone through...mmhmm,yes,i do feel kinda bu she de la,but no choice eh,its a part of life,i wanna go back to school everyday to sit there,and daze off thinking about some other things,and do zhang shou's revisions,its really touching when people says,"Allen,you can do well,you just need to put in more effot."eh?,i didn't know eh.."allen how come you know so many things,but you cannot score well"eh,its by luck that the question is something i know,so i can think about the answer quickly eh...mmhmm,and i like to sit there to listen to hui ling's observations,she never fail to observe how peculiar the teachers' outfits eh,mmhhhh,and many many other things..
last night,i had this conversation with yu kai,and ohhhh,i feel so sad after that la,not because he said something that upset me,but it's the questions he asked,those things he'd said,"allen,my mom compares u with me,she often says that u see allen,no tuition oso do better than you"hey,that was ages ago when i did well without tuition,but he still said something else,"You were once good"O M G,it's so weird that,that phrase comes out from him la,and then he rattles on and on about his life and my life..
i may look cheerful on the outside,but i feel really empty inside,those laughters are just to cover the emptiness in me,i seem to look like i have everything,materialistically,but,i've got nothing,the only thing that i face at home when i reach home from school is my empy house,the walls,the tv,there's no one for me to talk to,when some things bad happens in school,there isn't anyone for me to turn to,only until night time,my parents reach home from work then,i could share it with them,the time between was really really,unbearable,i felt like breaking down,but,there's something that keep preventing me to tear out..
i hate loneliness,pls take away the loneliness away from me )':
mmhmmm,omg,the feeling of graduating isn't really good eh,recently,it makes some people around me,really sad,everyone thinks about the past and then get really sad,all these things we've done,all these things we've said and all we had gone through...mmhmm,yes,i do feel kinda bu she de la,but no choice eh,its a part of life,i wanna go back to school everyday to sit there,and daze off thinking about some other things,and do zhang shou's revisions,its really touching when people says,"Allen,you can do well,you just need to put in more effot."eh?,i didn't know eh.."allen how come you know so many things,but you cannot score well"eh,its by luck that the question is something i know,so i can think about the answer quickly eh...mmhmm,and i like to sit there to listen to hui ling's observations,she never fail to observe how peculiar the teachers' outfits eh,mmhhhh,and many many other things..
last night,i had this conversation with yu kai,and ohhhh,i feel so sad after that la,not because he said something that upset me,but it's the questions he asked,those things he'd said,"allen,my mom compares u with me,she often says that u see allen,no tuition oso do better than you"hey,that was ages ago when i did well without tuition,but he still said something else,"You were once good"O M G,it's so weird that,that phrase comes out from him la,and then he rattles on and on about his life and my life..
i may look cheerful on the outside,but i feel really empty inside,those laughters are just to cover the emptiness in me,i seem to look like i have everything,materialistically,but,i've got nothing,the only thing that i face at home when i reach home from school is my empy house,the walls,the tv,there's no one for me to talk to,when some things bad happens in school,there isn't anyone for me to turn to,only until night time,my parents reach home from work then,i could share it with them,the time between was really really,unbearable,i felt like breaking down,but,there's something that keep preventing me to tear out..
i hate loneliness,pls take away the loneliness away from me )':
i know that i have loved you ... at 11:16 AM
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