Sunday, December 30, 2007
30/12
i swear,i feel really really weak now,mentally,yes,i never felt so weak before,i really feel like crying out.but somehow,i just can't..
Why do you even give me hope?
Why did you even came to me with such an approach?
Why is it that i would think of you when i want to do anything?
Why,Why,Why?'
Why am i so naive?
Why can't i just open one eye and close one eye?
Really,i felt really,really dumb after knowing all these things,
i asked him,why you like her?he gave me a reason,and he led me thinking,
they say,feelings come and go,yes,it came,and i thought it'd go,i waited,it didn't go,it stayed deeply etched into my heart,and now it collected up and made me feel this way..
i want to forget it now,but i can't...
When i heard them say,i really felt,dumb to the extreme...
I really was envious when i saw him felt angry when he saw another him doing these things,he'd even feel this way,he could accept it,to tell you the truth,i won't,i felt really really angry inside,yet i acted as if nothing happened,and smiled and cool him down...
i feel really weak now and yet all the time,i thought i was strong,helping others,bullshit,im just another one of the weaker people
Why do you even give me hope?
Why did you even came to me with such an approach?
Why is it that i would think of you when i want to do anything?
Why,Why,Why?'
Why am i so naive?
Why can't i just open one eye and close one eye?
Really,i felt really,really dumb after knowing all these things,
i asked him,why you like her?he gave me a reason,and he led me thinking,
they say,feelings come and go,yes,it came,and i thought it'd go,i waited,it didn't go,it stayed deeply etched into my heart,and now it collected up and made me feel this way..
i want to forget it now,but i can't...
When i heard them say,i really felt,dumb to the extreme...
I really was envious when i saw him felt angry when he saw another him doing these things,he'd even feel this way,he could accept it,to tell you the truth,i won't,i felt really really angry inside,yet i acted as if nothing happened,and smiled and cool him down...
i feel really weak now and yet all the time,i thought i was strong,helping others,bullshit,im just another one of the weaker people
i know that i have loved you ... at 11:47 PM
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Thursday, December 27, 2007
26/12
this photo really brings back memories (:
this is also in my room!
my own queen sized bed XD
i think its just nice for my size only leh,HAHAHAHA,i want a king sized one!
and oops,its really messy :/ cause i took the picture after i woke up,realising that i do not have to work today
omg,this is in my room XD,
nono,not the tv,the Home Theatre (: fuaaa,i just love my room la
Tho,i cannot blast the Home Theatre with my dad,cause my mum will shout at us if we do so,but its so leet leh,having this in my room (:
alright,i finally had a day off after working for a week or more
i finally got to know almost all the full timers well enough,they're really funny
for instance,there was once,the people staying at the chalet right above our briefing area when we're going for debrief,dropped a soccer ball down their room,and he,yazid,ran to the ball and kicked it..
Not back to them leh,he kicked right over the roof,and he said sorry,didn't do it on purpose...
and he told them he kicked it to the next room,and suddenly just nice got one boy walk out and he called for the boy,but the boy looked scared and went away back into the room
Then when he walk to me,i ask,:"purposely one ah?"
He nodded his head and laughed..
anw,yazid is a very fit guy,a malay
and he's really funny,he only repeats the kiss goodbye,first verse of the song...
when i heard it for the first time,i was kind of shocked and i asked
Me:"wa yazid you know chinese?"
yazid:"of course,my mother is chinese,father is malay,but come out,like that."
all of us laughed ._. cause he's kind of dark
anw wardi is a really funny guy also
me:"wardi,last night never go party."
wardi:"no la,i good boy,stay at home read book only...and when 12 o clock already,i shout merry christmas..but ah,when those people make a lot of noise,i will only shout !#$%...You going for the gala nite on thurs?
me:"no,i good boy."
wardi:"oh,alamak,new year coming..a new start for me,must change.Should i be a good person and keep quiet or continue my nonsense."
Me:"continue your nonsense." :D
he nodded and smiled then a few girls came and he gave sweets to them ):
don't know why also,they splashed water at me -.- , made me wet..
anw,wardi is a malay,also.
and yesterday,some young kids,were really nasty and gave us trouble,but it was before i came (: but when i went to work,i saw DM talking to them,and,cool man
They became really quiet ad composed themselves,its really funny can,they looked damn hilarious to me..childish people =x oops
anw,yesterday was a really really busy day for me,i had to open and close a point for like 3 times,lotsa things happened la....
oh and huiling,uh,not ang (:
you owe me one christmas present,call me uncle one more time,i don't get you one present in return ';...;' and i remember hearing from some other lifeguards that kids call you auntie,HAHA!
ok,im tired,need my rest,
I DON'T WANT TO WORK TML >.<
i know that i have loved you ... at 7:54 PM
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Tuesday, December 25, 2007
25/12
firstly,merry x'mas (: now imma to whine
BLOODY HELL!
im only 16 and all those aunties ask their son to call me uncle
*(&#*(&#(@#I@
BLOODY HELL!
im only 16 and all those aunties ask their son to call me uncle
*(&#*(&#(@#I@
i know that i have loved you ... at 4:51 PM
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Sunday, December 16, 2007
16/12
i changed shift again (: ,actually i am supposed to wor this morning,but,don't know why eh,i don't feel like working,there's this hunch ):
I shall blog slowly now,for as far as i remember what happened.
Friday
Very Very Very Bad day...Uber bad...that day was like,all families,no young people at the themepark playing,see those little children until sian...Or maybe its just that im feeling damn sian cause im working OT,and YuKai started work that day...Cool eh,and there're two more girls.But they only worked till 1430,tested ride with them leh,the rides will be damn boring if you don't breach the rules or nearly breach them,cause sitting there,just spinning is like,sian,don't hold handle also can one leh,but still can see that both just started to play the ride,yu kai was emotionless and the girl was like shouting,damn funny one leh,then ah,one raft on the way down was stuck...spoil the whole ride...tsk la,then i wanted to go up test ride again,but ah,wa lao eh!got 5 person on the raft liao...then the girl was like so enthu,and she went in,left me and yu kai,i asked yu kai to play,but he don't want,he claims that he's shy,then they went down,and i rushed back then to report to my station before my duty sup see me not there :/ then later got bad record,no good one leh :/ Fuaa,Sit at the station until butt pain,last time is,want to sit but cannot,got those dumb dumb waves,then stand until leg pain,go tsunami,very heng one,i walk there,either is wave just on,or wave just off,so either is sit long or stand long...but so far,i sit longer (:
Well,some serious things happened,but,don't blog here better,its not a nice thing too..
and i almost fell asleep while waiting for stand down..
Saturday
actually i should work the morning shift,but i changed shift with faizal,hence i worked the noon shift,practically nothing happened that day la,everything was smooth,but i miss the test rides ):
the rotation was like ??? to me,i keep forgetting which place to go,but when i reached a place where i could see yu kai,he was damn funny,no whistle one,the slide operator,
and i felt very pek chek after sometime,because he didn't help me,normally,experienced slide operators help to look at the staircase place to see if people are resting there anot,but ah,i was the only one doing that keep scanning until eyes pain,and the other girl was even funnier,i wistle the people sitting at the staircase,she look at me,only,i whistle until cannot take it,then when she looked at me,i signalld her to whistle at those people,but ah,she whistle so soft man,of course the people there don't care la,then she went off from the place she was standing and asked for help for the experienced slide operator,which is another girl
She is very very very very fierce,i think i heard her shouting,OI GO AWAY LA,from three stories high...don't mess with her leh
Anyways,yu kai did his first hourly report and he was like very nervous and shorty was teasiing him,and he saw me laughing from another place,its damn funny one,but if you never listen to it,you won't find it funny one la...
And Yu Kai,stop lookin at me when you are not doing work,im not gay pls
And yes today is sunday and i am very bored
i can't wait for alex to come to wild wild wet,or any other people,cause if they ever come,for any minor extra actions they do,i'll whistle at them (:
and this is for the staffs there to see
Andy has a crush on rosadhel
Lui Teng and Xiang Rui has a crush on phoebe
yes,i have a big mouth (: who ask them don't tell me who they like,or else i won't post here :)
Oh no,i think i have fallen for you ):
I shall blog slowly now,for as far as i remember what happened.
Friday
Very Very Very Bad day...Uber bad...that day was like,all families,no young people at the themepark playing,see those little children until sian...Or maybe its just that im feeling damn sian cause im working OT,and YuKai started work that day...Cool eh,and there're two more girls.But they only worked till 1430,tested ride with them leh,the rides will be damn boring if you don't breach the rules or nearly breach them,cause sitting there,just spinning is like,sian,don't hold handle also can one leh,but still can see that both just started to play the ride,yu kai was emotionless and the girl was like shouting,damn funny one leh,then ah,one raft on the way down was stuck...spoil the whole ride...tsk la,then i wanted to go up test ride again,but ah,wa lao eh!got 5 person on the raft liao...then the girl was like so enthu,and she went in,left me and yu kai,i asked yu kai to play,but he don't want,he claims that he's shy,then they went down,and i rushed back then to report to my station before my duty sup see me not there :/ then later got bad record,no good one leh :/ Fuaa,Sit at the station until butt pain,last time is,want to sit but cannot,got those dumb dumb waves,then stand until leg pain,go tsunami,very heng one,i walk there,either is wave just on,or wave just off,so either is sit long or stand long...but so far,i sit longer (:
Well,some serious things happened,but,don't blog here better,its not a nice thing too..
and i almost fell asleep while waiting for stand down..
Saturday
actually i should work the morning shift,but i changed shift with faizal,hence i worked the noon shift,practically nothing happened that day la,everything was smooth,but i miss the test rides ):
the rotation was like ??? to me,i keep forgetting which place to go,but when i reached a place where i could see yu kai,he was damn funny,no whistle one,the slide operator,
and i felt very pek chek after sometime,because he didn't help me,normally,experienced slide operators help to look at the staircase place to see if people are resting there anot,but ah,i was the only one doing that keep scanning until eyes pain,and the other girl was even funnier,i wistle the people sitting at the staircase,she look at me,only,i whistle until cannot take it,then when she looked at me,i signalld her to whistle at those people,but ah,she whistle so soft man,of course the people there don't care la,then she went off from the place she was standing and asked for help for the experienced slide operator,which is another girl
She is very very very very fierce,i think i heard her shouting,OI GO AWAY LA,from three stories high...don't mess with her leh
Anyways,yu kai did his first hourly report and he was like very nervous and shorty was teasiing him,and he saw me laughing from another place,its damn funny one,but if you never listen to it,you won't find it funny one la...
And Yu Kai,stop lookin at me when you are not doing work,im not gay pls
And yes today is sunday and i am very bored
i can't wait for alex to come to wild wild wet,or any other people,cause if they ever come,for any minor extra actions they do,i'll whistle at them (:
and this is for the staffs there to see
Andy has a crush on rosadhel
Lui Teng and Xiang Rui has a crush on phoebe
yes,i have a big mouth (: who ask them don't tell me who they like,or else i won't post here :)
Oh no,i think i have fallen for you ):
i know that i have loved you ... at 3:32 PM
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Sunday, December 09, 2007
09/12
off day!song lehz
but first let me blog about yesterday..
08/12
yea,its a saturday,and im working,has been four days since i worked,consecutively eh,but i think my pay is not even over 300++ yet,tsk ): k to be precise,its only 240+ little bit out only, wa lao eh ): but nevermind,at least it is better than staying at home doing nothing..
Ok,reached wild wild wet at 11.45 and i started work at like 11.55 to let people go makan...heng the weather was like very cooling,if not,die,hot like dunno what,cause the first station i did was the ular-lah bottom...Time passes really fast there leh...Its like,wait awhile then got something to do,like push the floats and talk to the guests...
MMhmm,and some sort of funny stuffs happens leh,at maybe all stations la,but encountered this kind of things second time
A group of girls:"get ready ah"
Me:"huh?"
then they started to spray water at me continuously,and ah,the water is like dunno -123456 degrees,so damn cold,and they spray until dun wanna leave...What to do,man,and they lucky thing for them is the ular-lah top bucket dropped,so i got to signal to stop sending guests,and go retrieve it,and they stayed longer there, ._. but at the end ah,they left,and went for the ride again...Heng,i wasn't there already,rotation already (: anw those girls are like 13-14,so young ._.
next to tsunami pool
ok,i stay there for like 5 mins,and then i blow my whistle already,my cousin more power,when he scanning the pool,he already blow whistle at these group of indians,keep on breaching the rules one leh...Ask them not to hold on the ropes with their hand,they use their leg...
They got brain one anot sia..Ok,after they don't hold with their legs,they go and hold on to the rings at the side...I blow at that guy which is at my cousin's blind spot,he ignore me..
Ok,sua,i blow again,he look at me and ignore,then bo bian,i whistle to my cousin,ask him look at him,but he still cannot see eh..Omg..
Finally used the walkie,then he go and call him to put down..
wa lao eh,the tsunami like 123456 soccer match ending like that,after i rotate again,i saw the other person,he scanning that time,also blow liao,damn funny sia...
Then after that he tell me,these kind of people,must f*** them once then after that they don't dare already,he still say when i work long already,i will know,hope so leh (:
Now,its like a habit for me already :/ go any standing stations,i will find a pillar to rest to,although cannot one la,but who cares la,everyone doing that also :p
Around 4+, wa lao eh,the sun just nice,buy 4d also not so nice,shine at the place i can sit...
so hot and sunny sia,like oven like that,cannot stand it man,i was so hungry back then la,no energy to stand also,but the sun shine on my face until i bo bian,must stand also,very irritated at that time...But heng ah,for like 15 mins,the clouds covered and omG,once i sat down,i almost fell asleep :/
The DM room is just behind me,fuaa,heng nvr doze off,later if kena push inside the pool,very malu,anw,the place i sit is just beside the pool..
And the same thing,same peope took the ular-la happened la,and they said
"Who ask u so good to bully,thats why we spray water at you.See you later"
i was very tired by then,so i ignored them :/
yea and then went back to yishun to acc. my cousin to buy psp,the usual shop,the usual people...
But now its different,no people ka jiao me,instead,they having war with psp,damn funny sia,their vocabs
A:"Eh,i working don't kill me leh."
A:"wa,CB,i working la!why u kill me?"
B:"got free one,why don't take."
C:"What is my death now ah?"
A:"16,but you still top frag la."
C:"WA,CB LA,WHY DIE SO MANY TIMES"
A:"you put there pause,free frag,of course die so many times la."
i was there laughing like siao,they damn funny one
and yes,my cousin got a psp,cool eh,slim leh,even better than mine,i so envious ):
mm...
09/12
woke up at 9,its like a habit leh,these kind of things,tsk,wake up so early even though i do not need to...anyways,went out to buy something at northpoint for someone...i was late,hehe,as usual,but this time got reason one leh,i help my father set up a glass,dunno call what at home,so i bathed at 1.15 and reached there like 1.35,but i cannot find hui ling,so,i decided to go and find jing hang while sms-ing her,but,wa lao,can gum abit anot?he just nice go break with guan hao
&#*(@&!@$
then she came up and found me..walked for some shops and then decided to buy a cup,then wanted to buy a watch,but ah,don't have a design i want,so,went to amk hub to see see,and wa cool man,i totally forgot jason and yongwei they all got bm lesson today,and just found out jason is working at ntuc next tues for $4.30 per hour,OI,the pay is like cmi leh...and yong wei is much more cleverer,go for another interview,better than the$4.30 cmi pay =x,eh siyuan not saying you ah =X,hahahaha,ya,and then went to look for si yuan at ntuc afterwards,You Stupid Stock Boy (:
mmhmm,and omg leh,hui ling's pay is x2 of jason's and still not enough leh,must +1.40 some more,jason,u qi liang la you ._.
Fuaaa,went home at 3+ while she went to her grandmother's house to play mahjong,or dunno do what,and then i had fun with my new bed,and home theatre
Its seriously,very,uber,shiok (:
Ok,i go relax abit more for now...
bye bye (:
but first let me blog about yesterday..
08/12
yea,its a saturday,and im working,has been four days since i worked,consecutively eh,but i think my pay is not even over 300++ yet,tsk ): k to be precise,its only 240+ little bit out only, wa lao eh ): but nevermind,at least it is better than staying at home doing nothing..
Ok,reached wild wild wet at 11.45 and i started work at like 11.55 to let people go makan...heng the weather was like very cooling,if not,die,hot like dunno what,cause the first station i did was the ular-lah bottom...Time passes really fast there leh...Its like,wait awhile then got something to do,like push the floats and talk to the guests...
MMhmm,and some sort of funny stuffs happens leh,at maybe all stations la,but encountered this kind of things second time
A group of girls:"get ready ah"
Me:"huh?"
then they started to spray water at me continuously,and ah,the water is like dunno -123456 degrees,so damn cold,and they spray until dun wanna leave...What to do,man,and they lucky thing for them is the ular-lah top bucket dropped,so i got to signal to stop sending guests,and go retrieve it,and they stayed longer there, ._. but at the end ah,they left,and went for the ride again...Heng,i wasn't there already,rotation already (: anw those girls are like 13-14,so young ._.
next to tsunami pool
ok,i stay there for like 5 mins,and then i blow my whistle already,my cousin more power,when he scanning the pool,he already blow whistle at these group of indians,keep on breaching the rules one leh...Ask them not to hold on the ropes with their hand,they use their leg...
They got brain one anot sia..Ok,after they don't hold with their legs,they go and hold on to the rings at the side...I blow at that guy which is at my cousin's blind spot,he ignore me..
Ok,sua,i blow again,he look at me and ignore,then bo bian,i whistle to my cousin,ask him look at him,but he still cannot see eh..Omg..
Finally used the walkie,then he go and call him to put down..
wa lao eh,the tsunami like 123456 soccer match ending like that,after i rotate again,i saw the other person,he scanning that time,also blow liao,damn funny sia...
Then after that he tell me,these kind of people,must f*** them once then after that they don't dare already,he still say when i work long already,i will know,hope so leh (:
Now,its like a habit for me already :/ go any standing stations,i will find a pillar to rest to,although cannot one la,but who cares la,everyone doing that also :p
Around 4+, wa lao eh,the sun just nice,buy 4d also not so nice,shine at the place i can sit...
so hot and sunny sia,like oven like that,cannot stand it man,i was so hungry back then la,no energy to stand also,but the sun shine on my face until i bo bian,must stand also,very irritated at that time...But heng ah,for like 15 mins,the clouds covered and omG,once i sat down,i almost fell asleep :/
The DM room is just behind me,fuaa,heng nvr doze off,later if kena push inside the pool,very malu,anw,the place i sit is just beside the pool..
And the same thing,same peope took the ular-la happened la,and they said
"Who ask u so good to bully,thats why we spray water at you.See you later"
i was very tired by then,so i ignored them :/
yea and then went back to yishun to acc. my cousin to buy psp,the usual shop,the usual people...
But now its different,no people ka jiao me,instead,they having war with psp,damn funny sia,their vocabs
A:"Eh,i working don't kill me leh."
A:"wa,CB,i working la!why u kill me?"
B:"got free one,why don't take."
C:"What is my death now ah?"
A:"16,but you still top frag la."
C:"WA,CB LA,WHY DIE SO MANY TIMES"
A:"you put there pause,free frag,of course die so many times la."
i was there laughing like siao,they damn funny one
and yes,my cousin got a psp,cool eh,slim leh,even better than mine,i so envious ):
mm...
09/12
woke up at 9,its like a habit leh,these kind of things,tsk,wake up so early even though i do not need to...anyways,went out to buy something at northpoint for someone...i was late,hehe,as usual,but this time got reason one leh,i help my father set up a glass,dunno call what at home,so i bathed at 1.15 and reached there like 1.35,but i cannot find hui ling,so,i decided to go and find jing hang while sms-ing her,but,wa lao,can gum abit anot?he just nice go break with guan hao
&#*(@&!@$
then she came up and found me..walked for some shops and then decided to buy a cup,then wanted to buy a watch,but ah,don't have a design i want,so,went to amk hub to see see,and wa cool man,i totally forgot jason and yongwei they all got bm lesson today,and just found out jason is working at ntuc next tues for $4.30 per hour,OI,the pay is like cmi leh...and yong wei is much more cleverer,go for another interview,better than the$4.30 cmi pay =x,eh siyuan not saying you ah =X,hahahaha,ya,and then went to look for si yuan at ntuc afterwards,You Stupid Stock Boy (:
mmhmm,and omg leh,hui ling's pay is x2 of jason's and still not enough leh,must +1.40 some more,jason,u qi liang la you ._.
Fuaaa,went home at 3+ while she went to her grandmother's house to play mahjong,or dunno do what,and then i had fun with my new bed,and home theatre
Its seriously,very,uber,shiok (:
Ok,i go relax abit more for now...
bye bye (:
i know that i have loved you ... at 8:23 PM
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fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Saturday, December 08, 2007
08/12
fuaaa,how long has it been since i last posted ah,not i don't want to blog eh,but its like,whenever i switch on my comp,i feel so tired,and everytime,i work till 8 eh,then reach home at around 10 cause i needa go bathe at my workplace and then eat which makes the time to be about 9,so i reach home on comp then its like 10 already,and im tired from the noon standing and the coldness of the water at the bottom...alot of funny things happened eh,and i got alot of very funny and friendly colleagues,they're really funny and nonetheless,im a full fledged pool life guard now,:) no more trainee on me,yay
omg,yesterday,there was this large poster,or rather few days ago,alot of us thought the real high school musical casts coming sia,but ah,in the end,is the singapore,dunno what come and my school came eh,i was shocked leh,when im on duty,then suddenly saw those white shirt girls,i was like,wth?
and,woah,they are just outside the staffroom,and im like walking pass there for every 15mins,so when i past by before we are on standby due to the weather,those group saw me,and they look at me as if they saw alien sia,eh,i cannot work as lifeguard meh? )': i was kind of surprised when even the grads came,only some grads came la,kind of curious,but cannot ask,cause working,saw people like,ying shi,hui ling,kathleen,got one more ah,but i don't know the name,and wardi damn funny,he go disturb them,then got knife-d bad..mmhmm,and went to watch the performance after work,awhile only,must support my school leh,cause everyone's else school also never come,only mine,so proud,fuaaaa,left for dinner with daniel,enzzio,phoebe and sabrina..~~
then went home...
Eh,im not dao la pls,hui ling,im on duty when u call me,and my duty supervisor is watching me la,talk=die...
okok time to go for work,bb
omg,yesterday,there was this large poster,or rather few days ago,alot of us thought the real high school musical casts coming sia,but ah,in the end,is the singapore,dunno what come and my school came eh,i was shocked leh,when im on duty,then suddenly saw those white shirt girls,i was like,wth?
and,woah,they are just outside the staffroom,and im like walking pass there for every 15mins,so when i past by before we are on standby due to the weather,those group saw me,and they look at me as if they saw alien sia,eh,i cannot work as lifeguard meh? )': i was kind of surprised when even the grads came,only some grads came la,kind of curious,but cannot ask,cause working,saw people like,ying shi,hui ling,kathleen,got one more ah,but i don't know the name,and wardi damn funny,he go disturb them,then got knife-d bad..mmhmm,and went to watch the performance after work,awhile only,must support my school leh,cause everyone's else school also never come,only mine,so proud,fuaaaa,left for dinner with daniel,enzzio,phoebe and sabrina..~~
then went home...
Eh,im not dao la pls,hui ling,im on duty when u call me,and my duty supervisor is watching me la,talk=die...
okok time to go for work,bb
i know that i have loved you ... at 10:11 AM
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fate crumbled all around 0 identities